Have you ever felt incomplete? I did. I have always felt something was missing physically since high school. So one day, I came home to mum and said I want to get a tattoo. I was about 15 then. Of course mum said NO and she said you can do whatever you want when you turn 18 but for now, NO Tattoo. I know there’s no point in arguing with mum so I let it go.
When I turn 18, I was like “Yeh”. I can now do whatever I want. But I chicken out. So I thought it was just a teenage phase where it will passed. I think forgot about it for some time but then the thought came back often at the back of my head to get one. Why? I am not entirely sure. It’s definitely not just aesthetic. I felt that a tattoo has always somehow been part of me. I want to have a tattoo that I have a strong connection with.
During my late twenties, I decided to put the tattoo on hold because I was thinking I would like to be married without a tattoo anywhere in sight and would only get one after. I guess time has passed that I figured that I am probably not going to ever decide to get married. LOL! Nonetheless, I have been hunting and looking over the years waiting to figure out that right design. I did not rush and I know a tattoo is permanent. So I wanted it to be somewhat perfect. I want a design with meaning that incorporate my background, my past, future and strengths. The “Want” grew more intense since I got to New Zealand. I felt the strong need to reconnect with my culture and my beloved, Borneo Island. Sigh!
I have recently been thinking of the hornbill motif as the core design. I am still considering.
What do you think? Have you ever thought of getting a tattoo or something like that?